My Birthday Noodles

~good evening everyone!~

when I started this post it was barely 10:40 p.m and somehow I'm all alone and everyone is already in bed..! I love to have all the time for myself yet when I find myself having it I start wondering..what can I do with all this free time?

my birthday was few days ago..and as always..I didn't do anything special in it...it's hard to plan your birthday for yourself coz you're single and have no one to plan it for you! this is not how it's supposed to go..you're supposed to set and relax..act all clueless about it and pretend all surprised when your family throws you a big surprise party that you knew it was gonna happen all along..but you're too polite to ruin it for everyone! well...that's not what happened with me..my birthday went quietly just like any other day..and I kinda didn't mind it..coz for some reason I tend to feel much more lonely when it's my birthday..or if it was a special day that we're celebrating...I just feel a bit weird..having to celebrate another special day alone..

I donno if I'm the only one who feels that way on my birthday..but I just need a special person to share such moments with me..otherwise all I'm doing is blowing a candle and eating a piece of cake..!

I probably sound like a brat now..but I'm not really! just think about it..what makes a moment a special one? is it coz it happened on a specific date? or coz you shared it with someone special? I donno about you guys, but to me..my birthday holds no meaning to me what so ever..I could be setting home in my PJs and eating cup noodles for my birthday dinner..but that would be exactly what I need if it's with someone that cares about me..that would be just as perfect as any birthday surprise I could imagine.

 

I couldn't help it but remember how it was for me to share my birthday with a special girl an then I remembered!!...I never did! even my last birthday..I was dating someone whom I thought was special, but she decided to not make a big deal out of my birthday..leaving me to spend the day alone like always...I kinda forgot this memory but the flashbacks haunts me at such occasions...but for some reason I find this a good thing...this is one more thing I didn't get to experience...one more thing I look forward to and one more thing I'm saving for someone worthy...and now I find myself smiling..coz I can't wait to eat my cup noodles wearing my Pj's and cuddling to someone that doesn't care what we're doing as long as we're doing it together! (:

 

P.S. Happy Birthday to Me :D

Alex